Monday, February 27, 2006 4:25 PM
lalala~ yesterday was sho nice. hehheh.
great. im feelin nauseous again. grr.
i noe i shldnt b sayin dis. but somehow, i still feel guilty. tho i try to push it away, into a tiny little corner of my subconcious mind, i can still sense its presence. tt heavy, burdenin, painful guilt. no matter how happy i am, i cant seem to b truly happy. i noe its very unfair to u if i continue bein lyk dis. but i juz carn seem to forget abt de pain ive caused him. wen im laughin wif u, de little tongues of guilt will giv me no rest, n i fall silent agian. i must. i MUST stop dis. i carn make anyone else unhappy again. esp if its u. i MUST. tho i dunnoe how.