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when you pass through the waters
I will be with you
when you pass through the rivers
they will not sweep over you
when you walk through the fire
you will not be burnt
when you walk through the flames
they will not consume you


do not fear for I am with you
do not fear I have redeemed you
do not fear for I have called you by name
and you are Mine


when you walk through the shadows
I will be with you
when you walk through the darkness
I will bring the light of day
when you fall to your knees
I will lift you up
when you feel all alone
Ill b there to love you


do not fear for I am with you
do not fear I have redeemed you
do not fear for I have called you by name
and you are Mine
do not fear for I am with you
do not fear I have redeemed you
do not fear for I have called you by name
and you are Mine


do not fear for I have called you by name
and you are Mine

lesson of the day


back+floor=back pains


i shld hav known. n remembered. but clever little me forgot n now im suffering. grr. i shall always bear tt equation in mind. bleagh. oh. thank you ylynn for praying for me. even though ure an antagonist or however u spell it. sorry i was never good at spelling. heex. thanks lisabelle, jillian, sharon and all the other ppl who were there.x)

and can it be that i should gain
an interest in the Saviousr's blood?
died He for me who caused His pain?
for me, who Him to death pursued?


amazing love! how can it be?
that Thou, my God shouldst die for me?
amazing love! how can it be?
that Thou, my God shouldst die for me?


He left His Father's throne above,
so free so infinite His grace!
humbled Himself and came in love,
and bled for adam's helpless race!


no condemnation now i dread;
i am my Lord's and He is mine;
alive in Him, my living Head,
and clothed in righteousness divine.

27 march. an impt day. VEGETARIAN LUNCH DAY. whee~ honestly everyone shld endorse this. cos its only for a day. n for a meal. it wont kill u to not eat meat. just think of all the fats ure save ure body from. yes. vegetarian lunch day is to raise awareness of the millions of animals that are put to death just for our stomachs. the poor chicks that never got a chance to live in ure omelette, the poor fish that will never swim ever again just to make ure fish n chips, etc. caitlin has named the poor poor jellyfish in the aquarium flora. such a cute name. it fits the jellyfish. cos its so cute!! so small. so nicee. she was left on the beach to bake until she was rescued n placed in the school aquarium. however, an evil little fish bit off her tentacles n now she cant float properly. even though she doesnt have any nerves n cant feel the pain, she still is a life form. so what makes u think u can play god n decide whether she shld live or not. honestly. shes been through so much already. just let her live out a remaining life in peace. n dont hurt her anymore. shes just a little defenceless jellyfish. wont ure conscience prick u if u kill her?? dont b a murderer. the blood of many helpless animal has been shed due to our insatiable hunger. dont kill unneccessarily. please.

nicenice wen sent me these pics. lalala. so nice! we should have more sista outings!! woo~ prettae gals. fei acting spastic. oh no! wens been influenced! 离别是悲伤的。 i look awful. nvm. may n her stylish new haircut! at least it was new then. sherry n her lovely bigg eyes. sista portraits.x) i seriously lurve the sistas. rawk on gals!

ouch. i broke a nail. i seriously need to open my eyes when i step into the house. or the nasty shoe rack will spring a surprise attack on me n crack my poor toenails again. this time its really bad. the whole nail split in half. owww. im not goin to look at it. it gives me goosebumps. the two halves are like still there. gross. i just realised i have alot of comfort objects. hahas. like my pig. im hugging it right now. so funny. heex. my dad was just talkin about a womans sense of secuirity. so queer. a guy talkin abt a womans sense of secuirity. hmm.. hahas. n its quite true lorhz. haha. or at least for my mom n me. lalala~ i wanna sleep...

lalala~ im depressed!! hahas. yet im laughin. hmm. abit de weird. haha. too stressed. i think i failed my lang arts test. wonderful. bleagh. n after tt i was so depressed tt i went to eat cup noodles. haha. comfort food. but eating at such weird times is seriously going to make me fat. honestly. n im fat enough. haiz. ohwells. theres a price to pay for eating comfort food i guess. haha. theres still crypto test tml. its supposedly a quiz. but i cldnt handle the earlier quiz. so i think i better start studyin. haiz. depressing. but i know my Lord will guide me!! x)

onegai shi mas!! don't ask me why i suddenly said that. just felt like sayin it. haiz. ohwells. i'm all messed up. just because of YOU.

oh yes. u were oh so right daryl. i hav a secret. a really dark one. clean out the closet! but i can't. the key's not with me. i left it with some people. it's up to them to open it. but they can always just let it rot too. i don't care. or maybe i do. i don't know. but hate me anyways.

was juz tinkin. tt otaku shldnt mean geek. i mean. its such a cute word. n yummy too. reminds me of egg. or pig. or wadeva. hahas. tokkin abt piggs. yuxuan gave me an extremely extremely cute PIGGG!!! whee~ hahas. im crazee. nvm. heex. but its really very cute lorhz. its beige wif a pink nose n ears. n its head ish sho bigg. hahax. da tou wa wa! lyk me!! dots. -_-" n it has WINGS. yesh. wings. nice white angel wings. hu says pigs carn fly? lol. aniwaes. wif its cute red n white striped overalls, it looks lyk a bee!! hahax. sho cute lorhz. heex. da tou wa wa. haiz. no one has called me tt for a long long tym. i miss jinghuan. she n her cute little tantrums. hahax. n her callin me farnie names lyk rhodalikins n qi qiu tou wa wa. n she was owaes interested in my head. my relatively big head. hahax. i miss 2a. haiz. dey were owaes obsessed abt my head. hahax. interestin ppl. hehheh. n dey owaes called me mushroom. or mushroom soup. haha. n pats rendition of mushroom soup ish sho cute!! hahax. my little apple pie. miss her too. haiz. juz realised i really m very blessed. God has blessed me wif sho many wonderful fwens. i shall learn to treasure dem. all my fwens. i lurve yall.x)

meive decided to make a change in my life. todays talk was totally motivatin n filled wif de Spirit. felt sho ashamed tt ive been slowly n surely tryin to get God out of my life. restrictin Him to sundays alone. again. wen i shld hav let Him into my life. feel sho stoopid now. but wad matters ish God's wonderful kindness n mercy. n tt He owaes forgives us no matter how many tyms we go astray. tho of cos tts no reason to take advantage of His mercy n grace. i shall live for the Lord from now on. cos tts de way tings shld b. i wanna b a good christian testimony for others. n stop tryin to b lyk de world. to b a honourable vessel for God. a temple where He can live. clean, pure, holy n acceptable in His sight.

i lurve de sistas.


i lurve dem juz sho much. dey nvr fail to brighten up my day even tho i hav lyk piles of hwk. grr. de dinner was sho wonderful!! lalala~ we shld hav more outins lyk dis. honezly. stress relievers. hahax. but really. juz spendin 2 hrs plus wif dem. n i suddenly feel sho fresh. n ready for hwk. whee~ i miss dis feelin. de feelin of de sistas!! -_-" hahax. i sho lurve dem!!


shoppin wif sherry. for her never endin wants of clothes. hahax. actin spastic in de changin rms wif yuxuan n her. sittin on de floor in de dressin rm n tellin xuan my xin shi. laughin wif zhoufei over spastic tings. singin wif may. watchin jiawen dance. goin home wif xuan.


all dis memories will stay in my heart. juz lyk all de others. n i will owaes treasure dem. lurve yall loads. muackx.

i wonder as i wander out under de sky...

ohmanns. sista outin on friday!! yayness!! x)


i totally miss de sistas larhz. carn wait. carn wait to see cute little zhuofei. hu shld b de most mature as shes de oldest n our dajie. yet she somehow strikes me as bein little. hahax. she n yuxuan can come out wif de craziest tings. n deyre owaes squabblin. yet dey lurve each other sho much. sho cute. heex. carn wait to see spastic jiawen. hahax. ohkays. ure not spastic. u juz lyk actin spastic. hehheh. bunnies!! lol. ure lyk sho mature yet sho immature at de same tym. hmm. guess moz of de sistas r liddat bahz. heex. n ure owaes sho much fun. carn wait to see may. even tho i can see her de moz often. yet we dun realli tokk.x( but away frm vj. we tokk. ALOT. hahax. everyting under de sun juz comes out. n ure sho mature. owaes can see de big picture. den can giv advice. x) carn wait to see yuxuan. ure sho cute. lyk a little puppy liddat. heex. n u owaes manage to cheer me up. somehow. without even tryin. ure such a happy little gal.x) carn wait to see sherry. ure sho swit. yet biantai. hahax. n ure owaes sho carin. puttin others before ureself. thank you for owaes bein dere weneva i run to u for comfort. u owaes put my mind at ease. even if de problem carn b solved. u let me feel peace. n i noe u lurve my butt. dun deny. hahax.


de sistas. u owaes will b part of me. i carn do without yall. n i lurve yall. each n everyone of u.


hope i can go for de sista outin.x)

i dislike people hu pretend to b all nice n fwenly.
i dislike people hu dun do wad dey promised.
i dislike people hu jump to conclusions.
i dislike people hu r judgemental.
i dislike people hu backstab others.
i dislike people hu say one ting n do de other.
i dislike people hu hav no morals.
i dislike people hu tink only of demself.

but moz of all, i dislike myself. for i m all of de above. i tink.

yay!! thailand rawked. but im sho tired. i shall not blog. ohkay. i shall. but not here. hehheh.

ooh. sho fun. hahas. usin de free internet acess now. hehheh. ohkay. cheaph thrill. nvm. heex. n may i add dat i lurve mud pies!! whee~ heex.

thank you sho much for bein alrite. u hav no idea how happy i feel, seein u get betta. i hope. heex. continue perservering kaes.x)

today was great! went to watch army daze. perle, sharon, stephanie came my house to change. n obviously i was de slowest.dun wan today to end. it was juz magical.

pls dun b de 3rd. i really carn bear to let u go. u mean juz too much to all of us. u hav been a pillar of support for us. n if u suddenly disappear liddat. de rest of us will juz collapse or sth. or mebbe its only me. but stiu. at least one person will collapse. can u really bear to let go? thank you sho much for replyin my msg. tho i dunnoe whether ull alrite. but at least u replied. sho i noe tt ure safe. at least at 8.35 laz nite. im goin to wait for u. today. in clas. pls come kaes. i nid u to come. really. ill owaes b here for u, sho dun worry. even if u dun wanna say anyting, its alrite. i juz wanted to let u noe tt ure not alone. n tt ill owaes b here, beside u, accompanyin u in dis walk of life. of cos i carn b dere physically all de tym, but im juz a phone call, an sms, an instant msg away. pls dun hesitate to tokk to me. even if its crap n not related to ure probs at all, its ohkay. juz continue livin kaes. x)

n u. im sho sorry for not bein dere for u. i nvr was close to u. but now, i regret it. i really wan to b fwens wif u now. i tink ull hav made a great fwen. dun tink too much kaes. cos it doesnt really help to tink. sumtyms its juz betta to b a bimbo lyk me n dun tink. it juz makes u feel betta. even if de prob isnt solved, at least u feel ohkay. yuppz. ill b here too. to lend a listenin ear, a shoulder to cry on. really really hope tt everyting will b fine. cos i nidta see u in clas too. or it juz wun b de same. pls dun leave us.

n u. i dunnoe wad to say. i noe ive caused u alot of pain. ive hurt u very deeply, without even realisin. n im sorry. i really m. i noe dis pain cannot b erased sho easily, but tym will heal all wounds, as long as u stop pickin on dem n let dem heal. i noe ure very angry wif me n him now. n ure tryin to make me jealous or sth. but it doesnt work dis way. tings juz dun work dis way. by doin dis, ure juz hurtin ureself n no one else. her opinion of u ish gettin worse by de day. n sho ish mine. dun belittle ureself liddat. ure definitely worth more den dat. its hard to pick ureself up after all those trials, but pls do. ill owaes b here for u. whether u lyk it or not. mebbe u wan me to hate u. i dunnoe. but it seriously isnt workin. pls treasure ureself. dere will b at least one person on this earth hu will really lyk u. n u shld treasure ureself, n wait for tt person to arrive. or mebbe shes areddy dere beside u. juz tt u dun realise. mebbe she hasnt realised it herself. but dun u worry at all. dere will come a day, wen yall will realise. sho until tt day, pls treasure ureself, n protect ureself, n stop doin all dis tings dat r sho detrimental to ure health, both physical n mental.

ill b prayin for all of u. x)

too many tings hav happened. im juz too emotionally drained to tokk abt it.

ohkay. i cried again. n much worse dis tym. n i realised tt he isnt completely unknown to me. he helped brighten my day once. n i didnt even noe him. hes such a nice person. its quite unbelievable tt someone as nice as him can juz leave. liddat. haiz. life ish fragile. treasure those arnd u. i will. thank you for de msg today. it really brightened up my day.x) aishiteru

today, i shed some tears for someone almost unknown to me. i dont noe his name. i carn really rmb how he looks lyk. but i noe i noe him. n... yarh. i cried. for him. n his parents. n family. n fwens. n i sincerely hope tt someone out dere will help his family tide thru dis very sad time. God bless them.x(
somehow, im really emotional dis past few days. i tink i noe y. hahax. anyways, i really really want to treasure those arnd me now. yuppz.

lalala~ dun ask me y im up sho late. u dun wan to noe. heex. anyways. im suddenly very happy. hahax. n i suddenly lyk de shui diao ge tou tingy. hehz. but stiu carn rmb those punctuation marks.>.<

thanks sho much da-jie.x) tokkin to u juz relieves stress somehow. heex. feel sho much betta now. miss u sho much manns. n everyone else in dunman. haiz. one ting i really miss ish all de fwenships i hav. >.< but i dun tink i will ever regret makin dis decision to move. cos even tho i lose alot of fwenships, i stiu gain many.=) we gain some, and lose some. we juz carn hav everyting in life i guess.. heex. but no matter wad. ill stiu lurve 2a'05 n choir n of cos all de famms i hav out dere!! lurve yall loads.x)

oh. im referin to faith btw. heex.

i juz wanted to let u noe, tt juz noein how u feel ish enuf for me. u dun nid to do much.只要知道你的心意，我就满足了。x) hmm.. lotsa ppl seem abit down these few days. cheerup! heex.

lalala~ im bored. dun wanna do hwk. juz wan to slp.

i slept 13 hrs laz nite. amazin ritez. im such a pigg.

been eatin nuthin but instant noodles today. whee. its amazin larhz. normally my mom wont allow me to touch it more den once a wk. but ive ate it lyk 4 tyms?? hahaz. sho cool. heex.

looked thru all my childhood photos. n i realised tt im really very fat. ohkay. was. but i stiu am. heex. n i tink my hair ish much much betta now. thank you very much. heex.

im juz crappin here. my feelins r all somewhere else. in anuther blogg. gd luck if u wan to noe. happy searchin! hahax. im goin thru eMotioNaL lyiNg...

ohkay. im up at dis weird hour. cos i carn slp. hmm. lyk duh.

slept at 8 laz nite. dun ask me y. i fell asleep as i was replyin smses. sho dumb ritez. haiz. but now cannot slp liaoz.

sho sad. my dad wont let me go for guitar n youth choir later. x( lyk how mean ish tt larhz.. im juz ill. tts all. im not lyk dyin or sth. carn go for tuition either. but tts sth i dun mind. heex. i wanna go to church later!!! ahhhhh!!!!!

ohwells. tink ill go stone now. grr. wen will slp come?

today was gross. i had to leave early. grr.

had whole day off today. no sch. whee~ sometimes, u juz hav to marvel at de laz minute-ness of jcs. hehz.

but de day off stiu did not warranty a sneaking away frm 3rd period. grr. had to do some jumping excersises which supposedly helps to improve someting somewhere to help mi standing broad jump. but i hav no affinity wif sbj. honezly. after doin 2 exercises, i went pale n de usual stufs. haiz. sadness. i carn even do jumpin properly. wad ish happenin to me?? bleagh.

i wan to run. i wan to jump. i wan to b healthy n normal. juz lyk everybody. but its sho hard. no matter how i try, i stiu carn. ish it tt impossible, to enjoy gd health?i juz want to be lyk everybody else.

now hav to go get long term mc. haiz. how i dislike tt word.

ohwells. im really really sorry to all hu were worried becos of me. im ohkay. really. i m. thank you sho much for bein dere. ure presence realli made it sho much betta.x)

u wonder, wad u r here for. i say, look arnd at de ppl arnd u.
u wonder, if u r worthy to listen to music. i say, wad ish music for anyways.
u wonder, if dere was sth meant for u to do. i say, be ureself.
u wonder, if ure worthy to b in vjc. i say, u got in anyways.
u wonder, if de teachers r wastin their tym on u. i say, theyve areddy wasted it, sho make gd use of it.
u wonder, if ure fwens will b future enemies. i say, deyre ure fwens now, and tts all tt matters.
u wonder, if food ish meant for other worthier ppl. i say, r dere any worthier ppl.
u wonder, if ure smile makes anyone smile. i say, yesh, it does.
u wonder, if ure worthy to write. i say, ish language worthier den u.
u wonder, if ure worthy to see. i say, didnt God giv u eyes to see.
u wonder, if ure worthy to speak. i say, ure words bring joy to others.
u wonder, if ure worthy to walk. i say, u can owaes run.
u wonder, if ure worthy to touch worldly tings. i say, r de worldly tings worthy of ure touch.
u wonder, if ure worthy to hav fun. i say, fun ish meant for havin.
u wonder, if ure worthy to lurve. i say, ure lurve touches ppls hearts.
u wonder, if ure worthy to b lurved. i say, ppl giv deir lurve away knowingly.
u wonder, if ure worthy of ure targets. i say, uve areddy achieved dem, hus to say dey werent ures.
u wonder, if ure worthy of ure fwens. i say, dey noe u r worthy of dem.
u wonder, if u mean anyting to ure family. i say, dey nid u much more den u realise.
u wonder, if ure worthy of de computer. i say, its juz a machine.
u wonder, if ure worthy of others concern. i say, u are, becos u are u.

de world may seem cold n harsh at tyms. it may not seem to require u. de blue skies, de green leaves, r u worthy of dem? doubt may appear n no glimmer of hope may shine. but nvr do giv up. for everyone ish equal. n no one ish worthier den another. for we were all placed on this earth to do one ting. glorify His name n spread His word. if de sparrows can b sho carefree, noein tt de Lord will provide, no matter wad, wad more u, His beloved child? seek refuge n solace in His word. He will owaes b dere to hide u n comfort u. no matter wad. x)

n deres owaes me.

lalala~ found a nice but totally chim poem. ohkay. i dun exactly find it nice. but i do lyk two lines. sho it can b considered nice bahz. heex.xP

and death shall have no dominion

And death shall have no dominion.
Dead men naked they shall be one
With the man in the wind and the west moon;
When their bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone,
They shall have stars at elbow and foot;
Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though lovers be lost love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion.

And death shall have no dominion.
Under the windings of the sea
They lying long shall not die windily;
Twisting on racks when sinews give way,
Strapped to a wheel, yet they shall not break;
Faith in their hands shall snap in two,
And the unicorn evils run them through;
Split all ends up they shan't crack;
And death shall have no dominion.

And death shall have no dominion.
No more may gulls cry at their ears
Or waves break loud on the seashores;
Where blew a flower may a flower no more
Lift its head to the blows of the rain;
Though they be mad and dead as nails,
Heads of the characters hammer through daisies;
Break in the sun till the sun breaks down,
And death shall have no dominion.

虽然觉得有点太突然，但我还是会坚持到底的，因为我太爱你。

anuther borin day. sort of. only one word. sleepy. y m i. typin. lyk dis. dunnoe. its fun. tho. deres acty a. rhythm. if u can see. heex. stiu nid to chiong. bleagh. stoopidly irritatin. lit. instant noodles. rawk. yeah.