and you will keep me safe, and you will keep me close, and rain will make the flowers grow

a little fall of rain
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can hardly hurt me now


this rain will wash away what's past
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Friday, January 23, 2009 9:08 PM


well, just to clear the air before hordes of people start accusing me of turning emo. lol.

went shopping with the girls today. it was supposed to be movie day but it somehow evolved into a shopping trip, i don't know how. guess that's why guys hate going out with girls. we are so undecided and so easily distracted. haha. anyway it was great fun chionging around trying on clothes and camwhoring outside toilets. and i fell in love with pouffy who is a cousin of flouncy and jill will probably say that i have bad taste or whatever but i do love them both and always will. my heart is big enough for the two of you and your cousins and sisters to come, of beautiful things that i will never be able to possess. anyway i really do love you pouffy even though i gave you away to the girl in the changing room who fell head over heels over you after seeing me wear you. i wish you the best of luck and may she give you eternal happiness. 

oh, did i tell you i'm mourning over the loss of pouffy? lol

and i really do need a new body. this weary and worn out shell is too decrepit for further usage. know anything up for sale?

Thursday, January 22, 2009 8:59 PM


sometimes there just isn't any point in doing anything cos more often than not, people won't keep their promises, choosing instead to hide behind their moral smoke screens. it really makes me wonder why i try so hard. 

some things just can't be helped i guess. and so is this yearning to not think about anything and just numb everything but that never does help. the facade can never be complete and no mask is ever perfect. one just needs to view things from the correct perspective to notice the crumbling away of the soul as if mice were nibbling away at it from inside. 

just a little quiet time to recollect myself would be priceless but as always, life's never ebbing tide bears us on.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009 9:37 PM


because when dreams come crashing down, one either retreats into one's comfort zone or sets off on a separate path altogether. 

and this is a new beginning. 
would the new be able to stand firmly amongst the ruins of old? or would they too fall, undermined by not only life but also the remnants of the old?

but i will continue, for this is a new beginning.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009 1:38 PM

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who i am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot whenever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves. much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Tagged: may, pocks, sherman, cheryl, jialing

1:15 PM

for every action, there might not necessarily be an equal and opposite reaction

and did i ever say that i hate to be alone? forgotten and alone.
but nvm.

Saturday, January 03, 2009 4:53 PM


oh the irony of it all.

anyway it's a new year and i've done nothing to improve my life as usual. though i do think it'll be a good start to re-examine myself and actually start caring about my studies and all so that i can convince everyone that i can go to austria and still not screw up my a levels. and of course, there's the big question of what am i going to do with myself after that.

things aren't always as simple as they seem and nothing seems to allure me anymore. all my past dreams seem rather shallow and superficial now but then again, isn't everything that way? it's just how we perceive things that gives them their value. and if i'm going to continue being so jaded i guess it'll be kind of impossible for me to realise what i really do value and to pursue the dreams that i have not yet found. it's funny how last year seemed to be so full of promise but it only left me feeling drained and wondering if everything is worth it. maybe this year will be better. or not. whatever it is, the clock will keep on turning, so there.