Tuesday, July 07, 2009 3:00 PM
i really really hate this inability to write. staring at a blank piece of paper or a clean word document. all my thoughts swirling round my head like a swarm of angry bees only to disappear whenever i try to pluck out a particular thought to shape on the paper. elusive wisps that buzz with mocking intensity at my increasing frustration to try to put anything at all on the document at hand. NEED TO FOCUS. NEED TO CONCENTRATE. NEED TO WRITE. i want a rose macaron.
oh and kettle chips are lovely.
which is why i am going to grow fat.
and as my small and petty life goes on, i feel sickened at the way i'm so obsessed and wrapped up with all the insignificant things. there is something better and inherently good out there, why am i stuck in this mire of the trivial? life really is too short to waste on silly things such as these.
thank you, you whom i never knew, for teaching me this valuable lesson in the most impactful way possible. thank you for the myriad of promises that you offered shimmering on the back of your palm. you who were so young, so full of promise, thank you.
rest in peace, grace. for God missed you so terribly, He had to call you back early.
{edit: is it me or is blogger really refusing to publish pictures forever?}