sometimes there just isn't any point in doing anything cos more often than not, people won't keep their promises, choosing instead to hide behind their moral smoke screens. it really makes me wonder why i try so hard.
some things just can't be helped i guess. and so is this yearning to not think about anything and just numb everything but that never does help. the facade can never be complete and no mask is ever perfect. one just needs to view things from the correct perspective to notice the crumbling away of the soul as if mice were nibbling away at it from inside.
just a little quiet time to recollect myself would be priceless but as always, life's never ebbing tide bears us on.