anyway i've been a relatively good girl today. i actually packed abit of my room!(: but i'm so tired already. oh Lord, i really really need more strength. good thing is i lost 600g just by packing the floor and half my desk. lol. quite a good workout i guess. hahaha. and yes i know i'm incorrigible. my stuff is always on the floor. haha. there's plenty to do for the rest of the hols i don't know how to finish everything but i can and i will, God willing.

during sunday school today, i realised that i've really been quite a horrible christian yet again. i'm always having these realisations and never ever doing anything about it. it's terrible. and the most terrible thing is why do i keep backsliding anyway? urgh. draw me closer to You, Lord. i need to stay focused on Him whether i'm in trouble or when life is smooth sailing. it's horrible that my entire spiritual journey can be charted in this whole roller coaster of spiritual highs and lows. no prizes for guessing which parts of my life are the spiritual lows. life really is too short for these roller coasters and i can't always expect the Lord to be so merciful and forgive me each time i stray. although he is a merciful God, that doesn't mean i should take advantage of Him. time for a revolution in my spiritual life! hopefully this isn't just another momentary spiritual high. i don't even like roller coasters=/