Thursday, March 09, 2006 3:45 AM
pls dun b de 3rd. i really carn bear to let u go. u mean juz too much to all of us. u hav been a pillar of support for us. n if u suddenly disappear liddat. de rest of us will juz collapse or sth. or mebbe its only me. but stiu. at least one person will collapse. can u really bear to let go? thank you sho much for replyin my msg. tho i dunnoe whether ull alrite. but at least u replied. sho i noe tt ure safe. at least at 8.35 laz nite. im goin to wait for u. today. in clas. pls come kaes. i nid u to come. really. ill owaes b here for u, sho dun worry. even if u dun wanna say anyting, its alrite. i juz wanted to let u noe tt ure not alone. n tt ill owaes b here, beside u, accompanyin u in dis walk of life. of cos i carn b dere physically all de tym, but im juz a phone call, an sms, an instant msg away. pls dun hesitate to tokk to me. even if its crap n not related to ure probs at all, its ohkay. juz continue livin kaes. x)
n u. im sho sorry for not bein dere for u. i nvr was close to u. but now, i regret it. i really wan to b fwens wif u now. i tink ull hav made a great fwen. dun tink too much kaes. cos it doesnt really help to tink. sumtyms its juz betta to b a bimbo lyk me n dun tink. it juz makes u feel betta. even if de prob isnt solved, at least u feel ohkay. yuppz. ill b here too. to lend a listenin ear, a shoulder to cry on. really really hope tt everyting will b fine. cos i nidta see u in clas too. or it juz wun b de same. pls dun leave us.
n u. i dunnoe wad to say. i noe ive caused u alot of pain. ive hurt u very deeply, without even realisin. n im sorry. i really m. i noe dis pain cannot b erased sho easily, but tym will heal all wounds, as long as u stop pickin on dem n let dem heal. i noe ure very angry wif me n him now. n ure tryin to make me jealous or sth. but it doesnt work dis way. tings juz dun work dis way. by doin dis, ure juz hurtin ureself n no one else. her opinion of u ish gettin worse by de day. n sho ish mine. dun belittle ureself liddat. ure definitely worth more den dat. its hard to pick ureself up after all those trials, but pls do. ill owaes b here for u. whether u lyk it or not. mebbe u wan me to hate u. i dunnoe. but it seriously isnt workin. pls treasure ureself. dere will b at least one person on this earth hu will really lyk u. n u shld treasure ureself, n wait for tt person to arrive. or mebbe shes areddy dere beside u. juz tt u dun realise. mebbe she hasnt realised it herself. but dun u worry at all. dere will come a day, wen yall will realise. sho until tt day, pls treasure ureself, n protect ureself, n stop doin all dis tings dat r sho detrimental to ure health, both physical n mental.
ill b prayin for all of u. x)