great. im cryin. again. but for different reasons dis tym. how can i continue bein such a happy person wen ive hurt someone sho deeply? how can i cry one moment n laugh de nxt?i hate all dis emotional lying goin on inside me. i dun even noe y i do dis all de tym. but its juz sho dishonest. n i hate myself for hurtin ppl. wad right do i hav to take away someone else's joy n laughter? i carn even giv joy n laughter to others. how can i take it away?? i hate myself.