i know it's rich coming from me, about stopping to think because i'm always rushing headlong into everything but religion is a sensitive issue for everyone because each individual BELIEVES in whatever they believe in and it is always beliefs that are so easily threatened. so i am not condoning whatever insensitivities the christian community has committed ever since the first days of the early church. but what i do hope for is for others to realise that most insensitivities are done by only a small handful of black sheep. there is NO point in raging at the wider community because most of us aren't even aware of what happened and we might not even agree with what has been done.

secondly, these insensitivities are probably not done on purpose. i don't think anyone really wants to go all out to offend others because that's just contrary to whatever intent of the original message. just think, what is the point in offending others when what you really want to do is get your message across? so i do hope that everyone can understand that these mistakes are really just honest mistakes. no one is criticising your beliefs, or threatening your worldviews. they just probably want to share their beliefs to raise awareness, and in this case, to encourage people (other christians really) to help share their cause.

evangelising really is a tricky business because as christians, we have been tasked to spread the gospel to the far ends of the earth. this is possibly why christianity has been attacked constantly by others because we are one of the few religions who actually needs to go out and share the word. it is inevitable that others will be offended when we try to share our beliefs because no one likes to hear that their beliefs might not be the best because everyone believes in something, thinking that it's the best option available. but i do sincerely believe that evangelising can be done sensitively without offending others. and it is only through this that it is possible that others can actually listen to our beliefs and values and decide if it is true for them as well, instead of being turned off right at the very first word. pray and commit every evangelical deed, or even any mention of christian notions to non-christians, to God and trust in Him to speak through us. i believe that it is only through the right attitudes of leaving everything to God that any christian message can be shared. human effort is just not enough because we always fail to see when and how we are crossing the line.

in the end, we are only channels for God.

maybe it's time to be back.

at least this time i won't be alone(:

the perfection we seek au naturel really is in the simple things, and i need this time to sit and reassess myself, my priorities, and revel in the beauty around me.

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
As they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

i love the slightly gloomy weather, the rumble of the thunder as if ruminating on the transience of life. the cutting off from others as one is cooped up in the little cubicle, surrounded by the grey-green light filtering through the trees and rain.

and the promise of perhaps a cup of cocoa somewhere in a cosy nook with the warm smells of roasting beans and the chatter as life rushes by. i guess that's what i like most about rainy days. the promise of warmth and cheer somewhere at the end of it all.

but as of now, i will sit and watch the rain drops fall as the earth lurches away from the sun.